i lost a confidante quite some time ago. the anger then helped block out the pain of losing you. when the anger subsided, i simply buried myself in the company of new friends, a new life and new beginnings. forced myself not to think of you, to just move on. the hectic life of jc is amazingly consuming maybe i shouldnt have blocked us out after all. is 2 yrs of love we had worth so little definitely not. but there are things you wont understand. why i choose to let go instead. nonetheless upon reflection i do regret somehow the way we let our forever and ever and ever rot away you have always been my gorgeous roach, up to today i still havent changed it.
someday, someday we'll figure a way out. till someday someday, take care my friend. final goodbyes may not last forever. with love; the elder sister you never had.
