sometimes im so sick of everyone expecting a certain something from me. its not that its their fault to expect it, its not like its wrong. its just that i cant handle it and i dont know what to do with it. i feel so bad that i cant live up to them. i see those things pile up and rot and im just holed up in this miserable place. they say they understand. but oh they never will. im sorry things dont go as planned, as all of you wish. mummy im sorry im not your bright acer child anymore. CR im sorry ive not been getting things how they're supposed to be. maine im sorry i dont seem to ever give you enough. and everything else, school projects whatever, im sorry i haven given my best. dude, im sorry i cant solve your problems, i cant help you with your work all the time, cant stay up every waking hour with you, cant do everything you want for you or with you, cant do everything that you expect me to, that everyone else expects me to. i hate the way everything is turning out. i wish nobody asks whats wrong or why im upset. i wouldnt know what to tell you and you'd only make me more frustrated that i dont know and make me feel more lost.
